I’ve been saving a lot of memes on Pinterest this week.
It’s a new development and I can’t remember how it began but I’m enjoying it. It has been a productive week, hurrah! That does not mean I cleared my to-do list, but it does mean I did a good job this week.
I have noticed some other new developments in the past week. It’s my first week post-period and this is the second month I have had to deal with a sort of convalescence after the mandatory days of service are done. I have been exhausted and that has meant many things, including a 10pm max bedtime.
I can’t complain too much though, I like falling asleep early.
Don’t think about your life after 5pm
00:19am Sunday 29th October, 2023, I should be sleeping. In fact, just a few minutes ago I was sprawled carelessly across my bed ready for the sleep that had been gnawing at my eyelids to have its way. But the mind is a treacherous thing sometimes and mine chose this ungodly hour to dredge up thoughts filed under “dead and buried”.
It was in a newsletter by Austin Kleon that I read something along the lines of no thinking about your life after 5pm (I’m not certain if it was 5pm but it’s sometime in the early evening). I could not adhere to that on my own tonight so I am here, typing to distract myself. I think it’s working.
There are many things to be good at.
You are learning a lot these days.
You have taken up nascency in many places.
It is all by choice but a heavy blanket has just been placed on your shoulders and you realize that you are breathing harder, sleeping off quicker, and drinking more water.
However, you will not buckle this time. You are tougher now. You are handling it.
But sometimes,
Like this time, you ask why.
Why is talent a rumor to you.
Why must everything be earned.
You ask this as you realize anew that you must put in the hours.
You must
or “nothing for you boss”.
You must go through the motions:
try/succeed/try/fail/practice/practice/improve …
It is a tedious thing to always have to work for it.
It’s not so bad, but it takes from you.
In other news:
I have been watching Attack on Titan because the finale season will be out in November and I’d rather not have a repeat of my Game of Thrones situation. I am in season two and while the story is showing highly interesting twists and turns I am slightly underwhelmed. My thoughts may change but that’s where I’m at for now.
Today I realized that life is a spoon. Especially in this country.
I envy people who got the chance to be successful without needing social media. These days it’s less of a choice and I don’t like ultimatums, I also think I should be on maximum 3 social media platforms, and that includes Whatsapp.
Thank you so much for reading. It’s the weekend, the last of it but still, rest. Take care of yourself. Do mindless things.
~ Naomi
Not thinking about your life after 5pm is the new golden rule. I feel like I've got Cinderella syndrome -- if it's past my bedtime, all horse drawn carriages will look like rotting pumpkins 😉
l enjoyed this. Quite close to home